Last weekend in Wales was so good I didn't want to leave come Sunday evening. It wasn't mind-blowing or anything, it was just really nice and comfortable that I felt like I'm leaving part of me behind. I know, so sappy. I actually had a mild allergic reaction on my face when I went up but he still managed to make me feel pretty :) I miss his gentleness. The way he smiles at me, the way he kisses my hair, my forehead. The way he always wants to hold my hands. The best part is knowing that he needs me as much as I want him. I love how he's a Giver, always giving without asking anything back - I never had that before :) I also loved the part where he murmured almost to himself 'Where have you been all my life?' :)
We're sending each other a little something-something in the mail for V Day :) Think we're both excited to open our mailboxes and see what's in store :D First time I'm really excited to have a boyfriend for V Day :) I've always been excited for 2/14 all my life but nothing happened the way I want it. Although I'm really not a sappy romantic (in bold as well, haha), I'd love if my guy does a little something for me that doesn't break the bank. Even if it's small I'd appreciate it. When he doesn't put in any effort, it irks me and doesn't make me feel appreciated.
This year's different. It's gonna be such a good one :)
I'm so excited for this phase of my life with A, however long this lasts - I hope for a long time. Shhh don't tell him ;)
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Bonne année et bonne santé.
The French have an expression 'bonne année et bonne santé' which means have a good year and good health.
Besides the obvious (that he makes me happy), A changes me too, out of my own volition of course. He's a runner, so he makes me aware of my own health too. Before, I'd always been complacent when it comes to working out but I've been motivated for a change in my lifestyle and A was the push I needed. He likes me for whatever I am at the moment (not that I need changing in his eyes) but for the sake of mine I needed that catapult.
It started when I noticed that my face has been acting up again lately. The easiest thing for me to do is to go to the doctor and get some free Dianette pills (which btw, is apparently not a birth control?) since it's an oral contraceptive and therefore is given free by the uni. I took them for about 4 days and just felt horrible (nausea is a common side effect) but I pressed on in aim for that clear, beautiful skin I once had. The pills are supposed to suppress excess testosterone production and thereby reducing acne. Supposedly anyway.
By the fourth day I'd been feeling worse than ever due to the nausea and decided to stop taking them especially when I need to be so careful with the pills when eating other oral tablets. On Sunday I got a strange face allergic reaction (I hardly think it was the curry laksa I ate and can only fault the evening primrose oil tablet I took). After speaking with A, I decided that I'm done for with the pills and natural is better. I kept popping antihistamines and more evening primrose oil (to balance my hormones) and today went out to get soya isoflavinoids and some kelp/algae supplements as well as acai berry tablets. I feel so much better mentally already. I've always been one for more natural methods. Stopping those horrible Dianette pills are also good for my mood; I was quite moody on Sunday and A took a lashing (he was more than happy to be my online punching bag) :P
The biggest change A propogated? Exercise.
I notice the change almost immediately. Yesterday I got my behind to the gym for the first time in a long time. I did zumba, and slept like a baby after. My insomnia is directly correlated to the fact that I probably just have excess energy to waste and my body simply isn't tired. Not to mention how unhealthy and lethargic I feel. It's a domino effect. By exercising, I feel healthier and automatically am aware of my food choices and other things too. I'm more energetic, I sleep better, I wake up feeling well rested, and I'm hoping it'll do better for my general wellbeing as well as how my face looks. I'm excited about being with A because he just makes me want to be healthier, starting with exercise and what we eat. My mom can't be happier because she's always been bugging me to go to the gym and eat healthier :P Today I went for a half hour Legs, Butt and Tum workout. My god it was hard, but so worth it. I hope my motivation lasts, and not just for a week :P Sometimes the weather is so awful all you wanna do is curl up at home. But once you get into a steady routine of working out, it's just natural that you want to keep working at it. It also makes my mood better - I'm happier. Before the tiredness affected my mood and inadvertently those around me.
Sidenote: Sometimes I wake up and forget that A's in my life. Probably because it's so new, and also the fact that he's not around the corner and I only see him bimonthly. I like this arrangement though; means that I can focus on my work and besides, I don't like the idea of always being pressured to see someone. It can get old fast. The feeling of being too comfortable with someone is not something I'd like just yet. I'm excited for the next 2.5 years - I hope it'll be filled with loads of new adventures and whatnots (A loves traveling as much as I do, in moderation and practicality of course) and this is the time in my life to do it. After this, I don't know if I have the time or means to do so anymore. Other responsibilities will beckon. A's just what I need, and I'm completely laid back in my relationship with him. It's a refreshing change. Adventure is what I need now, and perhaps til the day I die. A makes me feel secure too, it's not all about having crazy fun. He's definitely practical enough. Looking forward to this phase of my life :) Uncertainty brings fear, but it also brings adventure.
So here's to a bonne année et bonne santé! :)
P/S: It's so easy to keep track of when A and I met since it was on New Year's :P
Besides the obvious (that he makes me happy), A changes me too, out of my own volition of course. He's a runner, so he makes me aware of my own health too. Before, I'd always been complacent when it comes to working out but I've been motivated for a change in my lifestyle and A was the push I needed. He likes me for whatever I am at the moment (not that I need changing in his eyes) but for the sake of mine I needed that catapult.
It started when I noticed that my face has been acting up again lately. The easiest thing for me to do is to go to the doctor and get some free Dianette pills (which btw, is apparently not a birth control?) since it's an oral contraceptive and therefore is given free by the uni. I took them for about 4 days and just felt horrible (nausea is a common side effect) but I pressed on in aim for that clear, beautiful skin I once had. The pills are supposed to suppress excess testosterone production and thereby reducing acne. Supposedly anyway.
By the fourth day I'd been feeling worse than ever due to the nausea and decided to stop taking them especially when I need to be so careful with the pills when eating other oral tablets. On Sunday I got a strange face allergic reaction (I hardly think it was the curry laksa I ate and can only fault the evening primrose oil tablet I took). After speaking with A, I decided that I'm done for with the pills and natural is better. I kept popping antihistamines and more evening primrose oil (to balance my hormones) and today went out to get soya isoflavinoids and some kelp/algae supplements as well as acai berry tablets. I feel so much better mentally already. I've always been one for more natural methods. Stopping those horrible Dianette pills are also good for my mood; I was quite moody on Sunday and A took a lashing (he was more than happy to be my online punching bag) :P
The biggest change A propogated? Exercise.
I notice the change almost immediately. Yesterday I got my behind to the gym for the first time in a long time. I did zumba, and slept like a baby after. My insomnia is directly correlated to the fact that I probably just have excess energy to waste and my body simply isn't tired. Not to mention how unhealthy and lethargic I feel. It's a domino effect. By exercising, I feel healthier and automatically am aware of my food choices and other things too. I'm more energetic, I sleep better, I wake up feeling well rested, and I'm hoping it'll do better for my general wellbeing as well as how my face looks. I'm excited about being with A because he just makes me want to be healthier, starting with exercise and what we eat. My mom can't be happier because she's always been bugging me to go to the gym and eat healthier :P Today I went for a half hour Legs, Butt and Tum workout. My god it was hard, but so worth it. I hope my motivation lasts, and not just for a week :P Sometimes the weather is so awful all you wanna do is curl up at home. But once you get into a steady routine of working out, it's just natural that you want to keep working at it. It also makes my mood better - I'm happier. Before the tiredness affected my mood and inadvertently those around me.
Sidenote: Sometimes I wake up and forget that A's in my life. Probably because it's so new, and also the fact that he's not around the corner and I only see him bimonthly. I like this arrangement though; means that I can focus on my work and besides, I don't like the idea of always being pressured to see someone. It can get old fast. The feeling of being too comfortable with someone is not something I'd like just yet. I'm excited for the next 2.5 years - I hope it'll be filled with loads of new adventures and whatnots (A loves traveling as much as I do, in moderation and practicality of course) and this is the time in my life to do it. After this, I don't know if I have the time or means to do so anymore. Other responsibilities will beckon. A's just what I need, and I'm completely laid back in my relationship with him. It's a refreshing change. Adventure is what I need now, and perhaps til the day I die. A makes me feel secure too, it's not all about having crazy fun. He's definitely practical enough. Looking forward to this phase of my life :) Uncertainty brings fear, but it also brings adventure.
So here's to a bonne année et bonne santé! :)
P/S: It's so easy to keep track of when A and I met since it was on New Year's :P
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
You make me happy.
Me: The more I know you, the more you surprise me. Where on earth did I find you?
Him: Carlton Road, Edinburgh, Midlothian.
:)
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Malay folk song translated :)
Translation
- I feel love, hey! I feel love love hey,
- Hey when I look at that girl, I feel love love hey.
- I feel love, hey! I feel love love hey,
- Hey when I look at that girl, I feel love love hey.
- The jack fruit is outside the fence,
- Please take a stick and poke it down,
- I'm just a new guy trying to learn,
- So if I'm wrong then please show me the way.
Like cookie dough and vanilla ice cream.
I was right all along. The right relationship doesn't take much work; you just have chemistry, you 'get' each other, you're along the same wavelength. It's so easy to be happy. Of course there are going to be tough times but if you're right for each other it shouldn't be that tough at all overall. When you fight or have an issue it's not disastrous - you work it out together, listening to each other, so naturally.
This is my theory - communication levels are just going to experience a gradual decline from the get go. If you find that you're not on the same wavelength from the very start, not a good start is it? The longer the relationship, probably more stale it becomes. If you have difficulty communicating even when you first met, it's just going to be bleargh in a few years. And by that time complacence takes over as well.
I've never felt this chemistry with anyone before. That spark, that doesn't really die. It's not infatuation - that one dies quickly. But chemistry remains, and you know it within the first few minutes/hours of meeting someone. I think that not everyone experiences chemistry and not every relationship has it. I also don't think it's absolutely necessary to have chemistry in a relationship but it sure helps A LOT overall. Communication style is a big one.
Wiki offers that chemistry can be defined as ''non-judgment, similarity, mystery, attraction, mutual trust, and effortless communication. Chemistry can be described as the combination of love, lust, infatuation, and a desire to be involved intimately with someone''. I disagree with the infatuation bit, like I said before I think infatuation dies quickly but chemistry is lifelong if you have it with someone.
It's not necessarily sexual at all, that can be part of it but it's more than that. I think the key for me here is effortless communication and this deep-seated attraction that goes beyond face value. As a friend says 'faces are the first things to get boring'. I'd like to think of chemistry as an unspoken bond that two persons just 'feel' that lasts a lifetime. You can't work on chemistry - it's there or it's not. And in my case, its presence is written all over. I've never felt this much chemistry with someone; it's a wonderful thing.
That said, you can have chemistry with the 'wrong' person for you as well, it can also turn out ugly. Let's just see how this pans out. I'm pretty sure in my case it's nothing negative, well if there is it's not causing me to loose sleep :)
At the end of the day, for me at least, chemistry boils down to effortless communication and levels of expectation about how that communication will play across and in what fashion. I won't be yearning for anything more than he is already doing because he's already doing it - naturally. I also won't be wanting him to do any less than what he's exhibiting. Ah, semantics. Let's go back to something more metaphorical, because chemistry can't really be explained either - it's like cookie dough and vanilla ice cream :)
This is my theory - communication levels are just going to experience a gradual decline from the get go. If you find that you're not on the same wavelength from the very start, not a good start is it? The longer the relationship, probably more stale it becomes. If you have difficulty communicating even when you first met, it's just going to be bleargh in a few years. And by that time complacence takes over as well.
I've never felt this chemistry with anyone before. That spark, that doesn't really die. It's not infatuation - that one dies quickly. But chemistry remains, and you know it within the first few minutes/hours of meeting someone. I think that not everyone experiences chemistry and not every relationship has it. I also don't think it's absolutely necessary to have chemistry in a relationship but it sure helps A LOT overall. Communication style is a big one.
Wiki offers that chemistry can be defined as ''non-judgment, similarity, mystery, attraction, mutual trust, and effortless communication. Chemistry can be described as the combination of love, lust, infatuation, and a desire to be involved intimately with someone''. I disagree with the infatuation bit, like I said before I think infatuation dies quickly but chemistry is lifelong if you have it with someone.
It's not necessarily sexual at all, that can be part of it but it's more than that. I think the key for me here is effortless communication and this deep-seated attraction that goes beyond face value. As a friend says 'faces are the first things to get boring'. I'd like to think of chemistry as an unspoken bond that two persons just 'feel' that lasts a lifetime. You can't work on chemistry - it's there or it's not. And in my case, its presence is written all over. I've never felt this much chemistry with someone; it's a wonderful thing.
That said, you can have chemistry with the 'wrong' person for you as well, it can also turn out ugly. Let's just see how this pans out. I'm pretty sure in my case it's nothing negative, well if there is it's not causing me to loose sleep :)
At the end of the day, for me at least, chemistry boils down to effortless communication and levels of expectation about how that communication will play across and in what fashion. I won't be yearning for anything more than he is already doing because he's already doing it - naturally. I also won't be wanting him to do any less than what he's exhibiting. Ah, semantics. Let's go back to something more metaphorical, because chemistry can't really be explained either - it's like cookie dough and vanilla ice cream :)
Sunday, January 13, 2013
You give me something.
''Katie wasn’t asking me to change; she was just asking me to expand my definition of who I was. And the best part: If I’d do it for her, she’d do it for me, too.''
-Steve Rinella
These past 2 weeks have been amazing. Being liked completely for who you are and what you believe in, even if they don't necessarily agree with your stance - is so refreshing. I've never dated anyone out of my comfort zone, let alone someone I've only met once before and who lives 200 miles away from me. We are not opposites; we just lead very different lifestyles. I was assured that what we want is the same, and I believe it really is. Excited to spend this weekend together :) Here's to the beginning of something beautiful.
-Steve Rinella
These past 2 weeks have been amazing. Being liked completely for who you are and what you believe in, even if they don't necessarily agree with your stance - is so refreshing. I've never dated anyone out of my comfort zone, let alone someone I've only met once before and who lives 200 miles away from me. We are not opposites; we just lead very different lifestyles. I was assured that what we want is the same, and I believe it really is. Excited to spend this weekend together :) Here's to the beginning of something beautiful.
Monday, January 7, 2013
For all we know.
''For all we know we may never meet again
Before you go make this moment sweet again
We won't say "good night" until the last minute
I'll hold out my hand and my heart will be in it
For all we know this may only be a dream
We come and go like a ripple on a stream
So love me tonight; tomorrow was made for some
Tomorrow may never come for all we know''
-Chet Baker
And that's what we did. We didn't say goodnight or goodbye until the last minute, and we only had one night :) And on New Year's Day too, in the horriblest of circumstances. Like a freaking film, haha.
Before you go make this moment sweet again
We won't say "good night" until the last minute
I'll hold out my hand and my heart will be in it
For all we know this may only be a dream
We come and go like a ripple on a stream
So love me tonight; tomorrow was made for some
Tomorrow may never come for all we know''
-Chet Baker
And that's what we did. We didn't say goodnight or goodbye until the last minute, and we only had one night :) And on New Year's Day too, in the horriblest of circumstances. Like a freaking film, haha.
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