God is good.

Got a new job ;)
Everything seems to be falling into place here, quickly.
My uni work (and I still can't believe I'm working with David and Donna), money matters, now my job.
I'm happy. I know I've said it countless times, but I am, and I can't believe I've not been happy for years in comparison. It's a wake up call. I've always sorta discounted my happiness, and didn't even know I was unhappy really. I used to think that it isn't a big deal, that other things were more important. I felt like it's a silly little thing to cry or whine over. But I've realized that God wants me to be happy too, and that my happiness IS a big deal.

Any doubts of England not being the place I should move to has been erased. This IS the place I'm meant to be right now. So glad I listened to God's call even though it was mighty difficult to make this huge change in my life. So much has happened over the last few months and it's crazy to think that I was in New York not too long ago stressing about what to do and where to go. God kept pointing towards here, and all I had to do was pack up and go. I'm settling down here at a great pace and won't look back any longer.

P/S: OHMYGOODNESS It seems like all I ever talk about is how happy I am :/ But I can't help it, it's like a revelation to me of how happy one can be. I never thought that I could be this happy - how pathetic :) I have been so miserable for most of my life I don't even know what happiness feels like. For most of my childhood, it was dreadful. A lot of hurt and anger. During my teenage years I just sorta put up a wall and became oblivious to the fact that I was hurting and unhappy. I was in Malaysia for two years and was greatly unhappy there too. I was yearning for things I didn't understand or couldn't grasp. I just knew I had to get out of there. Then I moved to America and something wasn't quite right either, I just wasn't as happy as I am now, here.

I think not knowing what it is like to be happy, made me unaware of the fact that this is how happiness feels like and I can achieve that. I almost settled for it, but took the greatest risk in my life so far and moved. And this is it - this is how happiness feels like. Of course I know that I am not always going to be this happy, but this is a baseline rate of happiness that I never experienced anywhere elsewhere and I'll take this any day.